Healing skills adjusting to heightened Wizard levels where embraces and eye-gazes allow space for cosmic adjustments. Love feelings stir inside of me when his body is close to mine. Liquid fire squishing around n spreading, melting the numb back to a reconfigured painless material. I am strengthened. The delusional part of me is 'so in love' as they say, but in reality, it is not him, it is the idea of a ship with someone like him.  

Karmic spotlighting mind calculating the 'what' portion of this breakthrough, a working definition to box it up properly. If i have to ask, 'is this the one?' as my enlightened friend TDV emphatically says no, it is not the one. We just know, like all those other times when love magically happened...which presently i am choosing to forget. It doesn't help he keeps returning like a boomerang and i have butterflies and smiles for him every time. He says our relationship is interstellar. How long is this song? Shit, i don't remember the words, you got sheet music?

Personalities in sweet confident simpatico, i can't tell if (how) he loves me or just loves love. Love projecting yummy, blanket-type fuzziness all over me. Heart strings aching for that bow to strike that chord...ah, how anxious and awkward (again.) Who programmed that love takes a second? Did love do that? A biological mojo backfiring of what it should look like in undefinable time? Ah, ignore subjective overthink. Bruised ego rehearsing its thumbsucking posture instead of humbly forgiving and being on-toes present, ready for anything that can/will change in an instant. 

In the meantime, i embrace my romantic nomad, and call in for guidance.

mind nauseates heart 
wondering the hows of love
while accepting it in
all universal forms

you still optimistic even
facing time behind bars
convincingly happy-go-lucky
and me, the quizzical skeptic
it's heartbreak watching you, and also
uncontrollable to not celebrate along with you
with heel kicking enthusiasm

face deep in my blond crazy afro
he plants a kiss on my head
'i love you' he shouts
and then moments later
'i love chia seeds with almond milk'