To Love Yourself Start Here:

Stretching into new possibilities
Breathing without hiding
Holding each learning valuable
Being breathed by, let it take over

Growing in sensation
Receiving pleasures & gifts
Abounding in delight
You are the Whole Universe
There is no Universe without you

Sunrays dancing & laughing on water
Shaking dust from hair
Time does not advance for you
It swirls and folds back on itself
To reveal stillness dreaming
Magnificence in motion

The lover and the one who loves
Who am I, daring to risk this love
This ocean divine
Drop storyline

Touch & know each part
Adventures in deliciousness
Divine cells vibrating as caress 
Taste the revelry
What it feels like,
what it tells,
what it animates
Pray, heal, submit
to heart's wanderings
The force, the free you
Face shining with love & tears

The song is old
Previously maybe forever unheard
But all the words are known 
I know this heart
it's finding more love every day
counting blessings
like sheep to sleep

All this time
I thought it was falling
Through cracks & wormholes
Sliding down tubes
Until horizontal rest

I recognize you when
You are bulldozing me 
Pull the knife & spread 
My cosmic donut
With glitter & glee

Play, 
I am here for you
Gathering like stone from dust
Pull it together 
Rest in breath’s pause

Trips around the spiral ride
Of a crystal bowl’s vibe
I subscribe to most high
Priestess with a smile
Sit with me a while
I’ll share tales of wild 
Drink tea and cuddle up to
Fringes fray

Living life risking to lose oneself in 
The warmth of unity
A unique centering presence zone
There is a deep desire to fall 
Into this ritual performance 
The dark of light 
Currency of connectivity 

I do get what I ask for
I receive blessings, 
Signs are revealed,
I am open to sight
Magical, crystal, embedded.

We are absent in our presence
We are cartwheeling with stars on comets
An aurora-more-re-al-ist

Remove need to improve,
It's an invalid by now, last legs, record skipping.
Now bring on dessert 
More goo please

Coming alive from Creatrix Cave.

Remember that time you were face down, ass up, grinning from ear to ear?
There was nothing left but light? You were a hedge-rider, one foot in each world
simultaneously, adaptable in all climes, nothing was worth grasping?

Feel the silence under the still.here…
Now add breath and tap under ribs
all around your horizon. Breath 24/7

Ideas topple as Jenga, fantastic! Meow I can finally
fucking see what I asked for! I see the river flows as I do
and it is eternal. Thank you, more please. I beg its coming end, the
dramatic shot through the heart, falling to the knees kind of surrender,
one last finger pointing up...

‘but it was fun wasn’t it?’

My word for the year has a foothold meow, it is ‘sight.’
The tarot read ‘You see the situation perfectly’
The bleeding time vibration I can harness both its
mycelium grounding as ascending progressive spiral.

Moon cycle frequency like stone, old AF. You were there - uh huh.
Were it end as volcano all smoke and embers? There was a question
of belonging and today a friend danced down a spiral stair exclaiming
‘If you feel you don’t belong in THIS world, it’s because YOU
are trying to CREATE a NEW one!!’

Find the silence everywhat
try to keep it with you
the space feel it behind (you know where you just were)
to the sides (moving sideways carves new paths)
and front (with arms open wide) to embrace this AH

Meow give yourself a pat on the back and vamos!

Find me - the birthplace of thought
A borrowed belief possibly? 
If so, what makes it 
so clingy n sticky? 
And why not another? 

Need 2 compare
Need 2 judge (guess/make up)
Have to experiment 
with different & random

Different - separate or not the same as the other
Ramana Maharshi says 'There are no others'

Can different ever be united? 
By relating to others
not by tailored technology
How to tell each other apart?

Our outer & inner selves are different
There, for what reason?
Can they unite? Agree? 
Where to start?

Everywhere! 
 

thank you for holding space for me in
such a way i was able to observe myself
go insane go off-center go wandering
through shadows in the green water

so many times experiencing this energy -
the tsunami way, the ignited until blinded way,
fire spitting from mouth like dragons

i burn as i learn
from you
watching you
moving through space
barefoot and trusting
the ground will
be there for you

my intention was to be honest,
forthcoming whether asked for or no,
giving not caring if anything returned,
longing for sweat and recalling how
our bodies fit together

i was ready to be immersed in you
that scared me the most, the way i was
making myself available, i felt me
manipulating in an unhealthy way

and in the same moments i saw it as
the mini mosaic murals that were being
created by many. the influence of muse
as pure creation. we have little to do about
the doing of the thing - we only
have to accept what is coming through as

raw roughness of energies still incomplete - 
coincides with tight gripped perfectionist 
paralyzed as corpse

the idea of 'better to continue 
and explore n do'
keep wondering who I are, 
keep wondering about the world

even though so much is KNOWN, 
what is read and learned
slanted fairytale suicide novela 
(insert laugh here) 

so been realizing lately that yes 
i/I/eye irritate myself and 
everything all around also irritates
driven by an impatience of my choosing
instead of trusting and believing, 
trusting and believing 

sorted formulation of ideas that resonate
can be a crutch or a curtain of a 
false exaggerated dogma, 
or a liberation! 
if one sees themSelf in THAT 
(one can still laugh at themselves in that) 
wake up everyday, put on the costume for the day,
go out in the world n pretend to behave seriously, 
looking at 299,999 pieces of information per day...
is what it is 

you don't have to go out and do that though 
you can go and do whatever you want 
letting go of 'supposed to' and 
relationship with...ah, what is it? 

Not shadow...
voice in own head that 
i'm listening to and thinking 
'who is that?' 
some me i don't get along with 
someone who is not me 
i mean seeing self in a false way 
at awkward isolated worst 
as an incomplete thing 
while showing as something else 
why that duality in myself so deeply? 
so i can continue to see myself? 
and accept myself? 

when i ask that aloud shoulders relax, 
chest relaxes,
deep space behind heart relaxes, 
IS relaxing 
i keep saying that i am done with 
being at odds with myself 
prefer to be raw and unfinished 
non-formulation helps me stay present 

a practice of being non-formulated 
that's trippy. i don't know what that is yet 
and it's almost time to pick a word for the year, 
twenty14 the year of blank 
the life TBL(ived)