Cosmic-charged Baja time is coming to a close, and with all honesty, I stand changed, transformed, new, and indeed improved. Improved in the understanding of myself, and the space I occupy in the world. Yet, I am lonely out here in the desert, the disconnect from friends and profound conversational clicking leaves life living in a void where winds blow as loudly as waves crash on the shoreline.

Large lessons in practical application increase confidence exuding unapologetically from all pores. Not just as something seen by others, but truly felt from within. Desert energy purifying soul to expansive edginess of living each moment in synchronized perfection. Two months with only a handful of meaningful banter due to the nature of this isolated ex-pat community.

Socially challenged gringos live cheap while living in million dollar abodes, surfing, and freely gossiping. Without internet or phone signal, 60-year-olds act like stoned high-schoolers with ATV’s, an endless supply of information and empty opinions of the surrounding neighbors. My refusal to divulge personal details, lines of inquiry returned with a changing of subject, leaves my neighbors in disarray, increasing the mystery of the single hottie from Miami Beach.

There are no single women for kilometers here. None. A woman on her own is: a mystery, a threat, a pity, an open invitation to molest, and a brave spirit all in one. Suspicions and curiosities arise all up and down this patch of dry dirt road. Without the capabilities to change the view of women in the eyes of the entire world, I gently offer to educate one by one.

Comic handling of transient males in wetsuits, caged in outdated paradigms, completely unable to confirm any slight retention or significant effects from firm dealings. Soul deep longing to stand up for myself, sacred masculine activated, a self-assured being, saying no has never been more pleasurable, the icing on this playground paradise.

Duality naturally exists in the same experience. Universe has skillfully connected me to authentic and beautiful men, loaded with honor and personality, who have allowed me to simply Be present and honest, with a nourishing and collaborative intention, elevated beyond the obvious sexual and physical attributes.

In meditation realizing I have been attracting this element for some time, and now retain numerous sexless relationships with this sort of hu-man. Gratitude spilling over for these lovers which are a great source of comfort to me, activating and balancing intense shiva/shakti energies.

‘Found’ is how I feel. This enlightened tribe of dedicated souls, drawing ever together, strengthening in combined force. Harmony is achieved in balance when souls are open to receive, simply being open to all possibilities. Visions crystallizing, trust builds in manifestations realized, present for the mystery yet to be revealed, the result of our combined and right-intentioned journey as I freefall into the unfolding unknown.   

Amazing accomplishments are achieved when doing absolutely nothing. Unplugged semi-seclusion, embraced between mountains and roaring sea. Expansive nights under an umbrella of stars in 3D due to gaia's hyper-pronounced curvature. Searching continues for words to describe the majestic trippiness of it all. 

Here on earth long-winded spirals coming to zero point. Endings are beginnings here in extended kumbhaka, ready and excited about spreading blessings sprouting from my greatest gift. New acceptance of the radical prankster, the smartass firecracker that used to get me into endless trouble with authority, has reincarnated into feisty activist life loving criminal. Surely has something to do with hanging out with these beautiful Mexican women of power and voice. 

Directing this abundance of fire accordingly to the situation, i have an avalanche of creativity at the moment, like a child in a room full of items she can actually touch, wandering through songs, scribbles, and shimmies, heart open and wandering through the fun house of life. 

Possible future paths flutter as i experience a greater communion with my soul's purpose, which i have been preparing for all this time. Seeing all the connections (even the supposed 'wrong' turns) reveals truth of my intuition being way ahead of 'me' and the greater acceptance of that gospel, the faster i accelerate and galactivate. 

Also coming through is a wholeness, more balance within self. Planning, scheming, experimenting, putting the Virgo elements in this set-up for my unfolding without pressure to 'make' something. Childhood programming beaten down via presence and forgiveness, why not simply enjoy the journey? 

The human brain in conversation only hears about half of what is heard (explains why speaking a new language is easier than comprehending it) the other half is filled in with one's own sense of context. Could there be an overage of pressure trying to figure out the mysterious half? The window moment before response can be taught to widen, but only after the admittance to being in the reactionary state. Spiritual conditioning continues...